wild stray

i was called wolf inside you. i scrapped at your insides digging for my freedom, i wanted out so fiercely that i often hurt your feelings with my clawing and digging. 

the light of the moon began to rise through the tiny crack of your cervix. --i lost it. you dilated fast but i still tore through you, protecting my head with an arm raised above it, i marked my eye. i have no memory of which eye i marked. too quick no time to stretch i ripped you from the inside, front to back, jaggedly. 

i don't believe i meant to harm you, just a wild stray. my dad walked in just after i entered the wind world. startling the doctor i lifted my head to howl. i was born with a strong neck. you just asked them to take me into the other room. 

dad took me, he called me moon baby, said my eyes were shaped like moons. i stared. observing silently. you were too exhausted to hold me. i injured not only your body but your feelings in my fight. i did not console you after birth by cuddling or nestling. you wanted comfort, i could not. i did not do this to harm you, just a wild stray. you laid me next to you, eventually i fell asleep after drinking your milk. i whimpered in the dreams of my first sleep in the world of wind.